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30 June 2006

M back instead on Sunday. My beneficiary didn't turn up for the camp and I felt duper bored over there. Alicia the camp commander actually told me if I don't mind I can actually pair up with other group, meaning two volunteers taking care of one beneficiary. Of course I do not mind, but what if I just joined another group it might not be too good, afterall they're pair up well in the beginning. So I left with Berth.

On our way back home, she did shared lots of her stuffs with me and actually makes me understand her better. I've to add on the the previous paragraph, if Berth is gonna stay for all 3days, I think I might be considering staying as well. It's because I've been acting as her beneficiary for this whole afternoon and she's taking great care of me. That's why when she left, I felt totally bored! Anyway, both of us has got pretty similar characteristics. =)

It has been ages ever since I went to my sec 3 camp. I think that was the most memorable and adventurous camp I've been to. As it comprises of high and low elements game for us. Still could remember that our group actually mess up the whole camp on day 1 and all the instructors are darn mad over us that they actually punished us do pumpings. But overall I enjoyed the camp duper much.

As for Y M Challenge Camp, is too unorganised. And they given me the very first bad impression was that, they actually took the whole afternoon for the registration. And we were like sitting down there for 1.5hours doing nothing. I've been waiting and waiting for my beneficiary, I thought they just gonna be a lil' late. But after I've finished up my dinner, they were still not yet here. I was still pening on my hope, that they'd be arriving tomorrow. But as from what I've know, they're not coming any more. So what's the point of me staying over there? That's the reason I left.

So I think i'll 've a good rest now and tomorrow gonna spend the whole morning and afternoon tidying up my things. Night time gonna do some revision and Sunday I should be looking throught the newspaper for some part time job for this vacation.


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22:32

I'm so useless..

Mom washed my school bag but she didn't realise that there're still things inside other part of the bag components, and yes she wetted my stuffs. I do not know why I'm so worked up that I asked her back "why must you always touch my things?". She said: "I'm kind enough to wash your school back for you. You don't even fancy it and say thank you instead of saying me." And I replied: "No thanks! Don't ever touch my things again!".

And there I couldn't get to sleep as I was self reflecting for every words that I've said to mom. After a good thought about it, I'm in fault and to think that I've to go for camp it makes me realised that the only person that I'd be missing every night is mom. I find it so difficult to communicate to mom. I wanted to apologise but some how, my lip just sealed up when I tried to say a word. Sigh... I haven't been disappointed with myself for quite sometimes and now...

Just wanna say sorry to my dearest mummy. And thanks for helping me to wash my school bag. Gonna be away for 3days, hopefully you'll have your meals on time and take your medicine on time. Otherwise, your cough 'll never recover. :) When I'm not around, you'll 've to take xtra care of yourself and when you miss me... give me a call. =)


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09:53
29 June 2006

Didn't manage to wake up desipte of umpteen time of miss calls from Alicia's. Was an hour late for taxation, but basically nothing new for today's tax tutorial. Costing was slacking around, was sitting down there but mind and soul are not there. Intergrated Accounting scored 23/25 due to my double record of normal loss in POH account, damn it! And that affects my P/L account. Job Costing, I took the wrong data for the Direct Wages, however, by luck I happens to get the prime cost right. :) Alright, not only me, Mic and Doreen committed the same mistakes as me too. Hmm, think for Costing CAII, JJ did the best among us, follow by Valencia, Mic, Doreen, Me and Hau's ehs? Should be cuz Hau's Integrated affected quite many of her accounts.

After school went to Bugis Chuan Yi Ping to eat steamboat with girls. Argh... Hau was late, the waiting time for her to arrive is damn killing man! Food ranking average, price ranking too expensive. Overall, pretty sad... I rather go Marina. Head to Bugis Junction, girls wanna take pix to keep as memory. Not long after Hau went to work, we headed back home except the busy mum, Valencia's went to meet her good friend...

Just finish packing up my bag, excited! Hees... so won't be blogging for these few days. Anyway, 'll be back on Sunday around afternoon. So don't miss me girls!

Take kaiire everyone.
-on vacation...

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21:50
28 June 2006

First and foremost, really 've got to thank Valencia's for morning calling me. Otherwise, I think I'd be missing the additional revision before the CA. Paper was rather easy just that careless mistakes again? Sighs, despite of staying up late every night, mugging and mugging non-stop yet I still committed mistakes. Forget it, from now onwards, I'll never wanna be aiming for 100marks. If it's possible for me to score 100 for every paper, then I wouldn't 've been ended up in ITE.

Lunch bumped into Vic, she looks so glumly. Wondering what thing's bothering her. Argh... I really miss my kakis in Clementi... Gina, Pei Zhen, Jasmine, Jun Lan, Teng Ying, Mummy (Suki), Victoria, Jeslin and Faith. Missing them so much, how come school life in Simei can't be such wonderful as in CT?

Accounting class, was dying for Mrs Ng to go through the toughest revision question, but she said she's going to go through only when school re-open. Well, it seems like I've got to think real hard and crack the brain for the correct answer.

Taxation lesson, was like wanting to finish the whole topic of questions in the assignment book. Haa, addicted in solving the questions. Hurhur...

MatterS that makes me pissed off...

1) Elder brother called me up when I was having taxation class. And he was asking me where 've I placed mom's atm card. And immediately I got so pissed off by him, is obvious and needless to say, he's wanting to borrow money from my mom again! For what? (Answer below)
2) Doreen called Hau's up, saying that she's on her way up to our tax class to pass us the account revision papers. Then she called me up again and asked if we wanna her to wait outside our tax class or 1st level at the lobby. I was thinking, since we're about to go down, then why trouble her to bring it up for us? We can straight away go home after taking from her. Afterall, we've got to do down... and here... She gets so agitated and she said: "Iya, why can't she bring up for us, why must be go down?" and I really feel like shouting at her. I know she don't mean it, it just a moment of anger, but must she be so agitated? It includes some hatred in it, isn't it?

I reached home with a very foul mood and mom's asked me what happened?!! I asked if brother is wanting to borrow money from her. And she nodded. Damn it, for what?

Mom: To buy a new handphone
Me: Can't he wait for his salary
Mom: Is having offer

Walked off to the room. I was thinking why mom's always so gullible? What if there isn't any promotion or so what, even it have? Damn... elder brother was 11years older than me. Yet he's so so so useless that I can't help but to look down on him. Father, and two brothers are all good-for-nothing chaps. Hell... Father don't even give household allowances to mom, brothers both promised to help out in the utilities bills... but they failed to do so. Fuck!!! I really wish to help my mom, but how? Why can't she let me help her for just one month... and she can 've her operation peace in mind? Damn, damn n damn... pissed off!

What are friend for? M I being too sensitive or... ? For this moment u can be so nice to me as before. But for another moment you can totally ignore me, so many years of friends... why could it be possible for you to treat me so cold? Hell...

Anyway... I did pretty well for taxation, at least I saw the improvements in me. And I'll do even better for the coming CA...

Depression...


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17:55
27 June 2006

I've to much to update for today, so I'll just go straight to the main point.

Mrs Sim's called Doreen up when we were having lunch at cafeteria 1. Because she make a big mistake in her mock paper. Alright, she's definitely the most responsible lecture I've seen ever since 15years of school. But initally, I felt so funny that she would bother to call a student up because of school work. It shows that she care, she concern and she bother. Next was Chew Hau's hp rang... and I thought she make a mistake too. But Mrs Sim's was looking for me. Hurhur... cuz I gotten the same answer for profit mark up on cost and profit mark up on selling price, which weren't suppose to be the same. Obviously. I went up with Doreen to see her, and so nice of her explaining the differences and the working of getting the answer. Even Herick complimented her that she's nice. Cuz she no longer nags at him for trimming his side burnt. Haa...

I ran into him and he reminded me of her. Memories flashed back of how she mocked at me when she knew you was here at my place. Hahax... I do not know whether I should be happy that I get to be with you momentary, or I should be sad to have know you.

-R girls really that fickle minded

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16:18
26 June 2006

Dudes check it out the latest IMVU instant messaging programme. Is a Sims like game, and of course is fun! Don't miss it or else you'll be regretted. Check out my f'ster pix if you like to know how similar its character and sim's.

Alright, I've been playing till too late of IMVU, so couldn't manage to wake up this morning. Just came out from the bathroom and realised that I couldn't make it for Costing lesson. So I thought, I might be wanting to join my girls for Accounts, and I discovered that is just an hour of lesson. And can you imagine from Jurong travelling to Simei for just a pathetic lesson is really waste of time. Therefore, I've decided to declare a school holiday for myself. =)

Finally m done with my revision and my fingers are gonna break in no time. Anyway, m such a good girl. At least I didn't stayed at home just to slack, I did my revision okies? I thought m gonna get nagged for skipping lesson, but I didn't.

Mom: "I didn't know that you were at home, otherwise, I'd 've get you something for lunch"
Me: "I'm not hungry"
Mom: "I thought you said you're going to school at 9am this morning?"
Me: "Today lesson is so bored, and I learn nothing at all for Monday lectures"
Mom: "Oh..."

*Winks. Manage to run away from her. She failed to remember my school schedule, so that's the advantage.

Forgotten that Valencia's still in school. Anyway, just sms me/ tag me the homework for today's. Thanks lots! Eager to know my taxation grade, hopefully tomorrow 'll be posted up. Otherwise, I've got to wait till Wednesday. Friday going to camp, hopefully 'll be over soon. Cuz m wanting to work!

Tata... ~


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02:11
25 June 2006

Have a great shopping with Kelly, and of course bought lots of shirts. Hurhur, so surprised that mom didn't nag at me at all. I was death to the world after washing up, haa... that's why didn't manange to post an entry. This weekend, seems to be the most relaxing days ever since school started. Haa, time flies so fast that quarter of the semester is gonna over. Soon, mid exam is round the corner. Should 've a good rest for the upcoming vacation. Whew, is just 4 more days that m enduring. =)

I hope I could find a new job soon, and earn as much money as possible during this vacation work. Should really starts to have some saving eh? Now, m so broke... so broke.

Kelly! M duper sorry for not online as promised last night. I didn't know that you're waiting for me to online.. hmm... so sorries nehx!

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12:22
23 June 2006

Cheerios! Is Friday again... wow how fast time really flies. But definitely no slacking for this weekend, as m gonna mug for Costing CAII next Wednesday. A mock paper on Tuesday... School ended an hour early today. Additional accounts revision questions to do over the weekend too.

I thought you'll never call me at such a late hour again, but you proved me wrong.

- memories of the past just flashed back when I closed my eyes.

lil' update

Oh man, I think I've been thinking too much. Mom was napping and I get so worried for her as she's having a bad cough. So I touched her forehead to see if she's running fever. Haa, is burning my hand *exaggerated, so I quickly when to get the thermometer and checked her temperature, well... is the normal temperature. Frightened. Someone please tell me how to urge her to see a doctor and 've a check up soon? Sigh...

I miss playing J.S bach suite no.1

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15:25
22 June 2006

I refused to wake up this morning despite umpteen times of mom calling... until Alicia's given me a call. Taxation CA was suppose to start only at 9am, but Mrs Tan actually distributed the paper an hour early. But no one was late for this CA, except me a lil' late.

M stuck in the beginning of the paper, and took pretty a long time to think. Manage to get those tricky one on hand but not Jin Pin and gang cuz Federick given them the wrong conclusion. [Federick conclued that 2months rental deposit is deductible, but by right it should be non-deductible as it didn't state whether it's an accured, or a prepaid] Poor guys... but shouldn't be affecting the overall percentage. :) Cheerios... Anyway, Jin Pin complimented me since when I've become so clever of adding in the rental deposit under the non-deductible expense. Not clever but have been paying 101% attention in class. Trick 2, even though Motor Car Expense was soley for business, it should still be restricted. Therefore, parking fine should be off set against the total amt. And the balances should be multiply by (56000-35000)/56000. And hence, you'll get $1114. Trick 3, Medical expense is capped within 2% therefore is deductible. I really hope I gotten everything correct, but my prediction tells me that is impossible. Haa, whatever it's... theory m definitely securing that 10 full marks. Theory of taxation is given away mark, unlike other theoretical subject. =) *Relief...

Last night, was telling mom that I wanted to come back home right after Taxation CA1, but still I went for costing. She said that my eyebags are getting darker, sobbies. Cuz of all the endless test that make me mug till late hours and even get back aching all nights. Humphf, finally I can rest awhile before doing my homework for accounting and costing. Haix, tomorrow Accounting make up lesson at 8am.. 4 hours of accounting and m sure to fall asleep in class.

Wanted to bring mom for a check up, but she's in the kitchen preparing for dinner. Sigh... I know she'll never want to go, forget it.

I saw that lil' boy who asked his dad endless of why, and repeating those same questions just reminded me of you when I asked you to sleep when I'm at your place. You know, you're just like a kiddo, cute lil' one, hurhur. And it's Taxation CA again, it reminded me of you morning called me. Telling me that you were sick yet not dare to rest as you're afraid that you might overslept and not able to wake me up on time. You know, I get so worried sick of you that I even feel so tempted not to take the CA? I know you gonna be angry with me if I did that, cuz I know you care and you concern about my studies. =)


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13:27
21 June 2006

Great appetite I've got. Read what I've ate this afternoon....

1) Spaghetti with cheese spread? Think so...
2) One slice of cheesy cheese cake
3) Half of Oreo xx cake

Whew! Definitely 've a fabulous meal so tonight not gonna take dinner eh? Hurhur... is a good sign that I can eat so much, it shows that m in a good mood. Is unusual of me.

School life's always like this, when I manage to catch up with Costing, m left behind a lil' of Accounting, but when I catch up with Accounting, I'm left behind Costing. Taxation was like, I could only manage to understand the whole topic until we've completed all assignments in the book and revision papers. All are driving me nuts, but one good news! I've got all the non-deductible expenses correctly, except one tricky one. Hey, taxation isn't easy... so applause for me please. =D I've got 26/30... so happy! 3 cheers for me...

One thing that makes me so moody that's the great disappointment I saw in Mrs Tan's during Tax class. Well, as I said, Taxation isn't an easy elective so there're potential failures. She looked glumly and worried-sick for us, wanted to explain the whole question yet there're so many students chit-chatting among themselves. Frankly speaking, I got so pissed off by Alicia, Mic, Hau's and that idiotic guy! Is not that m petty, but don't you get frustrated when your friend asked you a question that lecturer just explained? Don't you get irritated when ones don't even make an effort to think why she was marked wrong for that particular amount? This is not a momentarily of forgetfulness nor carelessness but is just plain laziness that I saw in her. I can't tolerate this kind of people at all. Sighs...

I hope I'll try my very best to do well tomorrow, and if possible I really do hope to score full mark for it, to show Mrs Tan that there are potential students like Jin Pin, Twins brother as well as Kelvin, John, KY and of course me --> aww ~ I said I'll try my very best, so don't doubt and 've some confidence in me! Hees..


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17:00
20 June 2006

It seems like I can't help stop blogging for a day. See, m down here crapping before I gets started with my accounting homework as well as preparing for tomorrow's costing test.

This morning, taxation paper was pretty tricky but I think I should be securing an A after so much of efforts putting in mugging. I checked my answer against Jin Pin's, my taxation assistant lecturer and yepp.. we gotten the same assessable income figures, 242 587. Haa, till now still can remember. So cheerios...

Came back home awhile when to meet Gina, been donkey years since we last met. As usual we went to the library and window-shopped till pretty late. I borrowed two chinese novels and two pre-school books for lil' niece. Hopefully she likes. Just now went to Popular actually wanted to get those staples that can be "lock" for Doreen's and Hau's... cuz their one I think spoilt, but didn't manage to get the desire one.

Valencia's sick eh? Babe please take good care of yourself. I can't buy you crysanthemum tea like how you bought for me. Cuz the shop don't operate business at such early hour. So please drink more water eh? I try to brew herbal tea for you provided that my mom's willing to teach me again. Each time I failed to jot it down... btw, you looking for me last night?

Haa, is 10.26pm now n m gonna do my school work before turning in.

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22:23
19 June 2006

Just reached home from school. Lecture was as usual super boring, every Monday I felt that I didn't learnt anything at all. Such a boring Monday... perhaps, I might be wanting to declare an extension of my holiday on 24 July eh? And what additional taxation lesson? It should be known as clarification of doubts lesson bahs... sighs... disappointed. Since when there's a mock paper for taxation? Is tomorrow, is tomorrow... is so sudden... madness!

-Don't doubt me, m missing you

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17:10
18 June 2006

Just woke up, yepp is Sunday noon. Lately, Dad's 've been treating me too nice that I find it so awkward. **** it, 19years... he has never been so nice to me. He even pasted a plaster when I'm already 19years old? It has been ages that he'd buy me lunch every Sunday and today he did. And I nearly forgotten that today's Father's Day. **** it, I've nothing for him. Eat out? Perhaps... may he gets well soon. =)

I'm starting to love taxation, whew!

Couldn't figure out whats so nice to walk and look around when there's a night market when there isn't a single stall selling computer games. Ever since the pasa-malam started, Mom 've been asking me to accompany her down for a walk every evening. And I gets so pissed off when she knew that dad won't be liking those type of undies yet she has a great feeling of buying it. Oh man, I think I'm too worked up that I really lectured her a lil'. Pissed off. M going for a jog tonight...

Finally m done with my revision of practical questions, left with a lil' theory to cover. Hurray! I've never been so eager over an additional classes especially after school schedule. But it seems like I can't wait for tomorrow's tax make up lesson at 1-2pm... :) I'm missing Mrs Tan... I wanna more revision papers, I wanna more! =D I wanna do well in tax and wanna secure an A for it. No careless mistakes please! Jia u jia u...

Best wishes to you, I've totally no idea what's gonna happen for the upcoming 1-2years. 've no idea if we'd still keep in touch. 've got no idea if it worth waiting for you. No matter what, you're secretly the one who makes me smile.

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12:06
17 June 2006

Madness! I can't stand my mom, aRGh...

If she couldn't reach my sis through her mobile phone then just try ringing her house telephone up eh? Why must she be nagging over whether they're coming over for dinner or not. Hell... can't even I take a toilet break w/o her nagging? ****

Rotted mood, all thx to mom! ;(


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16:31
16 June 2006

M damn mad with dad's. He threw away my rough paper that I used it to jot down my taxation revision paper key answer! Madness... I wanna scream!!!

Nowadays, had been going out in the evening and reached home pretty late. Sighs, having difficulties in catching up during class, sobbies. I swear I'll never wanna go out this weekend, m gonna lock myself up in the room, mugging non-stop. Not even allowing myself to watch any show/VCDs. Additional taxation class on Monday after school hours. Hais... no choice eh?

Accounting, costing, taxation are all driving me nuts.

Numbers, numerical, numbers, numerical, numbers, numerical. 1029384756... ARGH!

Updated

Is 9.15pm finally m done with all my homework. Tomorrow should starts off the revision for taxation le ehs? Haix... facing the books, papers, notes for 13hours? My eyes so tiring now norhx, hahax... alright gonna 've a quick wash up and tuck in early tonight. Hopefully tomorrow I'd 've time for a jog to shed off the fats.


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16:13
15 June 2006

Went to eat Ah Chew's Desserts behind Bugis Junction. Yepp, the mango sago is duper nice! Seriously speaking, I do not know how to appreciate hot desserts, it makes me feel like puking. But I still forced myself to finish up.

Nothing much lately, just that there gonna be a make up costing lesson tomorrow at 8am. Kinda sians. Simply because I don't like Mrs Sim's. The next time round she gonna ask for suggestion, m not gonna feedback, cuz she failed to get what I mean all the times! Pissed off. My favourite lecturer, Mrs Tan (Taxation lecturer) was on MC when we're having Tax CAI on Wednesday. Sigh... why always our class? Lecturers failed to be there when CA/Exam is round the corner. They'd be either on course/on MC. Haix... worried sick cuz m still CARELESS. More practice, practice n practice cuz I won't be seeing her tomorrow, Monday as well as Tuesday and Wednesday is our CA.. sobbies.

Argh... madness!

Going for a meaningful camp end of this month. M thrilled, as it has been donkey years that I haven't been going for camp. I miss sleeping in the tent. :)


-I think I'd be looking for a new job soon.

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14:37
14 June 2006

Was ****ing hell tiring when I finally completed half of my homework last night. But I couldn't get to sleep until 2am this morning. And hell, 5.30am m awake for a bathe. School work managed to catch up pretty much, that definitely sound great! I need to practice more, and more and MORE.

Alright lil' niece needs my companion, she's sick. I was luring her with cookies and chocolates.

I've got to complaint about all the additional classes on Friday morning for 2 solid weeks! Upcoming test for costing this Friday, gosh... taxation CA on Wednesday. Packed tight schedule.


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17:27
13 June 2006

Damn I just reached home, as I thought I gonna be out with sis for a few hours. And end up, she decided to put a tattoo behind her waist and yes it wasted me nearly 2hours. Alright, the skill was pretty good and so everything turns out to be pretty nice! And m saying is dirt cheap, it impossible for you to get such a nice tattoo on any part of ur body at such a cheap price. The shop is located at bugis street, 2nd level, I think everyone know where it's right? Damn, the facial expression of my sis is like asking anyone of us to might as well kill her. Is it really that pain? And can I endure the pain? Haha...

Alright, I got back home with a damn bad mood. Cuz of my school work... endless homework, endless tests and exams. What a damn... and I'm all lost... stressed.

11pm is when I start to do my homework? Hell..


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22:34
12 June 2006

I didn't know why m I feeling like a cat on hot brick when I was in the lecture hall sitting for the accounting CA paper this morning. My stomach just feel so pain that I couldn't really concentrate on things that m writing down. And damn it, I didn't manage to get the correct answer despite of 10 over revision papers that I've been re-doing it over the weekend with that stupid suck up running nose. Oh well, it was the stupidious careless mistake m committing AGAIN! Yes, again... How could I be involving the provision for bad debts with the Debtors? Damn it, m such a muddle-head.

Not worth to be hopping mad over this small lil' matter as that figures. Alright, after the lessons Alicia and I watched the movie titled SILTHER... is a funny, thrilling, disgusting and horror movie. Hey dudes outta here, do catch it if you loves scary movie. =)

Ooo ~ the feeling of rewarding myself with a movie is really so good. Time to mug for taxation CA next week. :)


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17:27
11 June 2006

M so mad over dad's. Is raining cats and dogs when I was in the bathroom but why didn't he bring in all the clothes? Damn it! All he cares is listening to his old folk songs, damn it damn it damn it! Is was a kind of relief that I manage to bring all in before mom reached home. Otherwise her face would be as black as charcoal and I'd be getting a dressing down from her. Haix

-Stupid phlegm

I think m having skin allergic again, haa... I ate the shrimp roll and my face is like burnt?!! Damn it, is pain cum itchy... jialat. Should be consulting a skin consultation soon. I finally know why m gaining weights and sick with lots of phlegm, all thanks to sis who bought the shrimp roll. Sigh.

I wanted to get some sleep but elder brother and mum are both chatting in the room. Brother urging me to bring mum for another check up, and mum asked him not to disturb me, m having exam. Haix... I should pull my mum for the check up soon.

Oh well, mum is having a bad flu now. May she get well soon. Nighty


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14:41
10 June 2006

M feeling so much of wanting to suicide ever since the day my nose gets blocked. Is feeling so terrible, I can't even breath probably... m suffocating every day and night.

I thought I was going on diet? Then why m I suppering with bro-in-law? Hurhur... BBQ chicken wings, yummy! Alright... nobody's stopping me when they knew about how badly my sickness is. Instead, they asked me to eat more, eat more. Haa... and I did. =) Cuz I always tell myself... eat first, diet later. Opps! Alright, m going on diet starting from tomorrow, I swear, I vow. Is not that I don't take breakfast entirely, I do drink a gigantic cup (250ml) of milo before heading for afternoon school (Mom fails to make me a cup of milo if I'm having 8 and 9am classes, as she only wake up at 7+ whereas, m already in the train. N I've got no time even to get my teeth brushed, so don't say about getting my water bottle filled up in the morning.) And so I've told her not to make me a single cup of milo as I do not wanna suffer from any diabetes or whatever illness like both my dad and mom are suffering now. N hence, I've decided not to 've any breakfast. I'll take my lunch as per normal, anyway... I don't eat too big a serving, as my gastric can't afford to take it. So I'll try eating some nice and appealing small serving size of lunch in school. =) Dinner i'll let green, red apple to replace it. Occasionally, dinner out shouldn't put too much weights on me eh? And I'll swear to do my sit-ups and my jog... still planning on the way.

M still having CA, yepp 've been doing my revision. But not much for today as I couldn't wake up early to do so. Well, m having a bad headache in the morning and now. Back to topic... m stressed up and equally pressurized. As m trying supering hard to persuade mom to go for another check up and if she really needs to go under operation, then I'll really needs to help her out in the househole chores and utilities bills perhaps for a month or so. Sigh... so much things troubling me... hmm... think should be pretty fine soon eh?

Sigh, conflicts at my cousin sis workplace, all bullying her 'cuz she was malaysian cum she my sister's the friend of the lady boss. They're just jealous of her, cashier short of money also blame my cousin. Sigh, so rarely that I could see her cry... sigh.

My school shoes is spoilt, mom urging me to get a new pair. But m hestitating yet I saw one that I liked and had been wanting for a long time. ... I've got to control my finance... Alright... m getting a prepaid card for my cousin sis tomorrow so that mom 'd reach her easily.

-Stupid headache
Nose blocked...

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22:53
09 June 2006

Never know that m name was once again highlighted in the poor attendance list. Sigh, it seems like it'sis impossible for me to escape from the mushroom head [section head] this time round. :( Was raining cats and dogs this morning when I woke up and gradually it drizzle when I stepped out of house. Hmm, nose bleeds again in school but was a minor one. Luckily, hahax... if not I think all my kakis would be frightened by me. Hees...

After school 've a urge to visit my cousin sis at bugis. But thought about the Mon CA, I think is better for me to head home early to mug3. Perhaps, dropping by her work place on next Thursday? Yepp... or maybe 'll be wanting to pay my aunt a visit at JB. Just now mummy was saying about all my cousins. Aha... then I've realised that I haven't been going back during CNY for years. And the coming CNY I think I SHOULD follow my parents back cuz I terribly misses them so much. Especially my shuai shuai biao di, I'm the only one he missed, ahem... that's what mom told me. And of course, needless to say, I miss him and his girlfriend too. Then I miss my super duper caring biao ge. Argh... I miss the way he took care of me when I'm a lil' kiddo. I miss my prettiest biao mei. She must be a babe right now. Haa...

I miss the shopping mall near our kampong too... ooo... I miss Muar! =)


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16:31
08 June 2006

I didn't realise that m gaining that much of weights until sis and her husband say so. And indeed I gained so much that I got a shock! M seriously going on diet and evening jog daily. End of the month should be able to shed away 3kgs!

Lil' niece is getting more and more tough to take care of. Especially when she's sick with bad cough. Sigh, wasted almost the whole afternoon and evening, not much revision I've done. Basically I've understood the concept just m too careless most of the time. So more practice, drill, drill, drill...

Although every one CA weekly for this entire month, I still do hope that there'll be job for us on Friday and Saturday nights. Is tiring, but do I've a choice? =)

I must learn to relax, that's when I've the willpower to control my diet and enjoy exercising.

-Nose bleed


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21:13

Obviously I can just go bang against the wall for committing such a stupidious mistake of not reading the instruction clearly for the costing CA1. It says...Prepare a Trading, Profit and Loss Statement meaning using vertical format. If it's to be done in horitonzal format it goes... Trading, Profit and Loss A/C. Duh! And that gone my precious mark. And where's my confident in doing theory? Where's my trust in myself? M getting 19marks for overall exam. Not that bad eh? Afterall, is just 20%...

I don't feel any much better after popping in all the medicines that I had it in my pills box. Chrysanthemum tea, 3 legs water all I drank... yet m feeling that my sickness is getting even worse? Hell... I need a good health to revise my accounts for Monday CA. When 'll I be back into pink health? I wanna jog away all my stress!

Fucking hate PMS! Stomach cramp is all I get EVERYTIME!

.. nose blocked
breathless

Movie anyone?
Slither
The Omen
The Nun
Silent Hill
Scarymovie 4
Frostbite

I believe after watching the above, that 'll burnt my pocket a BIG hole... =D

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14:28
07 June 2006

Alicia is sweet! She bought me a bottle of chrysanthemum tea when she knew that m having sore throat, touched! 've a gulp of it and it tasted so bitter that I nearly puke. I think it had turn bad already eh? Anyway, thanks a lot! She's so sweet...! That's what m looking in a friend? =) The closest kakis of mine is back to the one that I met long ago? The real happy-go-lucky kakis.

Anyway, CA was pretty fine I just hope that I won't deducted for the 5marks of using the wrong format. I think is pretty unfair if sim's gonna deduct that 5 precious marks of mine as it didn't really state down clearly whether vertical/horizontal format. Whatever it's, is already over and m gonna mug hard hard for accounting as well as taxation.


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17:45
06 June 2006

M downhere asking why m I always down with stupid sore throat and flu when m having paper tomorrow? The feeling of having running nose when writing the answer on the answer script is really terrible. My throat just get so dried up in the middle of night basically is because I can't breath using my nose, as it's blocked. And m wondering is mummy aware that m sick? Having the air-con on the whole night just making me feeling even more sick. M feeling that my skins gonna burn in no time, I think m gonna 've fever soon. Hopefully right after June. Can I hold on?

M prepared for the practical costing CA tomorrow, but not the theory. Perhaps, m feeling too weak to absorb any alphabet.

I hope I'd be reading numerical correctly and no silly careless mistakes for tomorrow's CA paper. Good luck to all n myself. Do my best eh? Take kaiire...


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13:31
05 June 2006

've been sleeping whole day last night and still I nearly overslept until dad woke me up this morning. He was admitted into the hospital due to the great pain of headache that he has been suffering for dayS. Alright, it seems like my gastric and headache are inherited from dad. Weather is duper killing this morning. Is warm, you can choose to tide up your long hair to calm yourself down instead of showing me that attitude face. Seriously speaking m not in a good mood as my day didn't starts off well, adding on of back aching. So please don't let your pms to over take you the next time round. Mock papers this morning was pretty easy just that m as usual, careless. Reading numerical has always been my weak point and carelessness is the hardest to prevent during exam, especially one is anxious and nervous, that's me.

For the first time m hearing mom saying that she was frightened by me. As I just walked into the bathroom when I reached home w/o greeting her. It's not that I used to greet her before entering elsewhere of the house, and so it really surprised me when she said that I should greet her before walking into room next time. I was damn pissed off when she was complaining about the good-for-nothing son. She was so worried about dad this morning that she woke up both good-for-nothing sons this morning. And sad to say, only one manage to get out from bed while the other one continue his sleep. Thing sounds even more pathetic when the biological son was the one who showed the 'nothing big deal' attitude to mom. And here, I sensed her great disappointment but m not surprised at all when my brother showed that kind of attitude. The purpose of saying the above is not to show how useless my brother is, but to say that my mom was such a nuisance. She didn't realise that each time she complaint about them was just so annoying to me. I ended the chat with "If you want, you can always chase them out of the house. Or call the police when you know they've done something that is morally wrong."

No matter how tiring, how stressed and pressurized, you're always on my mind. Friends have been visiting here always asked the same question: "Why didn't the both of us be together". And I asked them: "'d you be with someone who can't forget his/her ex?" ... precisely. It has been quite a long time that we haven't been contacting with one another. I feel that I'd still be crying late in the night when I misses you so much, and thats gonna be infinite nights of crying. I know m the stupidest, silliest girl in this whole world.

Out of my room into the kitchen, mom was nagging about the things to bring for dad later. When she mentioned of toothbrush, I was asking her back: "Since when he had a single teeth after that numerous visits to the dental?" Don't laugh if you think is lame.

Off to visit dad kinda reminds me about that greedy fat lil' me. Still could recall how thrilled I'm when each time mom asked if I'd like to tag along when they went to visit dad in NUH. I'm not excited about seeing my dad but excited over the egg tarts. How elated I was when dad bought me some egg tarts when he discharged. Alright, I hope dad won't be saying anything that gonna make my evening even more worse.


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15:11
04 June 2006

... ookies is just a day/nite I haven't been blogging yet m feeling like I haven't been doing so for a year or two.

I had been trying hard to get into my e-student server but it seems to be down? Damn it, as I need to apply the bursary. Hmm... actually I have nothing much to blog about, just that I've a great breakfast with them. They're funny girls eh?

Finally I could 've some silent at home for doing revision. Dad's too much! I could sense that the DVD player is gonna burst in no time if he's still gonna continue to listen to all the ah pek songs. Hell. And I really mean, I've been waiting for him to turn it off from 5.30pm, yes... he wasted my 4hours of precious revision time.

Alright, I still didn't manage to apply for the bursary when I managed to get into the e-student portal. Hell, I think I gonna do the application through my CCVC/GPCC. M off to wait for my mac delivery and get started off with mugging :)

Perhaps, m too emotion that I cried when mom don't understand me at all. Great disappointment in me when she keeps on forgetting things that I told her not just once or twice but keep repeating myself for the same old things. Madness

2 mock tests tomorrow, hopefully I could hit 90++ hees... Good luck to miie. Nighty


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10:29
02 June 2006


The Bottom Line: To get what you really want today, try letting go and letting it come to you.

In Detail: Sometimes the best way to get something is to wait for it to come to you. Experiment with a more passive attitude about life -- give in a little more and let other people plot the course. Sitting in the back seat will give you a new perspective, and it will give some deserving folks their time in the sun. By the end of the day, you'll be a different place than you expected, but after you get your bearings, you'll enjoy checking out the surroundings.

She was late, damn it! M having such a bad headache and the sun was like fucking hell sunny yet I still 've to wait for her to come when she needs my help? It's okay if she's 5mins/10mins late but she was 20mins late. Frankly speaking, I haven't been waiting for anyone for that long before! Alright, I saw her crush... and her facial expression was like "FUCK" why in the same bus with him? Haa... I thought I could go back home straight after passing her all the revision papers, but I was wrong. I even accompained her to get her pen refill. Reached home with famished stomach, yet there isn't anything edible in the kitchen. That sound pretty sad. N m saying, m not gonna work if she's gonna require for 2person s I really 've to finish up all revision papers and do a re-revise of all the revision papers.


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15:04

Morning, I was so pissed off by my closest cousin from JB. She said she's coming to Singapore yet her decision is not finalized. Is not that I'm petty or whatsoever, but afterall, they're my guests aren't they? So I just hope that I could plan at least a shopping trip to keep them occupied for the entire afternoon than to stay at my house chit chatting. But sigh, she just don't see the point.

Her sister rang me up last morning, saying that she couldn't contact the lady boss [which happens to be my sis friend]. So she called and the very first sentenance: "Why your sis didn't pick up my call"? And I replied: "Hey, you think my sister don't 've to work eh?"

She's coming to Singapore to work, yet she refused to stay up at either our house/sis house. Alright, that's gonna burn her pocket a BIG hole eh?

Stupid brother overslept yet still wanna blame MY mother. Bloody hell! And he was complaining that the room is so warm that he needs the fan fanning himself alone. Yet he's covered with his blanket from his head to toe. Hell. If you're that capable, then pay your dad a monthly of 300bucks to 've your own room.

Fuck off...


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09:29

M back from work, I thought I gonna be back only at 8am. But we rushed like hell at work, and in the end that's what we got. Here goes the supervisor brief: "Contractors, no KIT and you all 've to go back at 11pm... sorry arh" Sigh.

Also good, at least I won't feel so tired eh? Hmm, my accounting revision haven't finish doing nehx. Then taxation revision also. Next week, Monday mock accounting and costing also? Wednesday costing CA. Haix, so much of testS and CA can't really remember which date lers. Haix, stressed, stressed, stressed!

Anyway, I bumped into Kai Zi when boarding 243 back home just now. Haha, she didn't realise that m in the same bus as her until she saw an empty seat. Haa, chatted awhile with her. Haa... miss all the babes... Qin, Kel, Ber N Kai Zi...

Take kaiire everyone...

-m pressurized, stressed, headache

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